Friday, September 2, 2016
Friday, September 25, 2015
This brings tears to my eyes. I get so frustrated.
I also get calls supposedly from the 'US Government' saying that they have been trying to send me money that belongs to me, $7,000 and some change, but I have to send $200.00 in order for them to put it on my debit card. (SIGH).
And my favorite: a healthcare company that says I qualify for money from an operation that I supposedly had (I forget what part of my organ it was- I think 'bladder', and I tell them all the time that I have NEVER had that operation before, yet they continue to call. (Sigh). What the hell is going on?
Thursday, September 24, 2015
March 2016 I will have been out of work for two years. This is the longest I have ever been out of work. Can you say 'frustrating'? How about, 'depressing'? Every day I struggle to keep my head up. Some mornings, I pray. Some mornings I cry. Other mornings I pray & cry. I do declare God ain't listening to me. I do not know what my future holds. I can not see how my future looks. I do not know how to live. I go to church every Sunday; a leader in the church to be exact. I sit & watch while everyone a round me receive blessing after blessing after blessing, while I struggle financially just to make it to Bible study sometimes. I do feel, sometimes, that God is going to help me to pull through. Or is that it? My faith is 'sometimey'?
I pray that some day. I will read this entry just to see how far I will have come. #GodHelpMe
Friday, May 1, 2015
Big ups to Toya Graham, the Baltimore mother who was captured on video knocking her son upside his head for trying to participate in the Freddie Gray riots there. But I propose a question to whomever is willing to listen. When I went upside my children heads for acting up in school or doing something they were not supposed to be doing, I was threatened with a 'child protective service' visit. Did I not do the same thing to my child that Toya Graham did to hers? Where's my 'mother of the year' award? I was told that spanking is abusive. Well if 'spanking', is abusive, what is it that Toya Graham did to her son? America is praising her actions right now but on the other hand, what is America going to do when the riots are over and someone else is captured whooping or laying hands on their child? Are they going to become national hero's too?Now it may seem that I am coming off as a hater but that is far from the truth. Toya Graham is my shero because she exposed a form of punishment that many black mothers use when our children are out of hand. It is just something that we have to do and no law is going to change that. When our kids are in the wrong we do something about it regardless if it means jail time or a removal from the home. It is just what we do and some folk call it 'abusive'. Please, on behalf of Toya Graham and black mothers across the land, let us chastise our own children accordingly. I pray that we do not have to go upside out children heads. But if a parent refuses to disciplined an unruly child then the child will grow up to be unruly.
Toya Graham prevented her child from being unruly. And at the end of the day, the child was thankful and understood that his mother was only looking out for him.
So that is my say so. What so you think?
Thursday, January 1, 2015
After having a conversation with my daughter today, I tried to research a Bible verse that referenced the conversation that we had when suddenly I had the strong urge to blog about my experiences in the church of #JesusChrist. I want to begin by saying that never would I imagine that I would be worshiping our Lord and Savior outside of four walls. But years ago, I found myself in a small church that worshiped outside. I had been searching for a church because it had been years since I had step foot in one. And besides, I had just lost my job and had no where to go after the marshals made me leave my apartment. So when God said, "try me!" I did and in a short period of time, I found myself training to be a leader in the church. I was the praise and worship leader, I participated in baptism ceremonies, I helped prepare the Holy Communion, I prepared the church certificates and something that I did not care too much about, outreach. I did this all without any church experience other than sitting on a pew every now and then.
So during this time, the leaders in the church had been discussing going out to the communities to witness to the people about the #GoodNews. I personally felt that I was not ready, that I did not know the Word enough to tell the people what they needed to know. Finally, the pastor targeted #EastOverShoppingCenter in OxonHill, Md. . I was not too thrilled about that even though we worshiped only a few blocks away from there. For me, at the time, there was something about doing outreach and talking about the 'goodness' and then your weed man walk up to you in front of everybody and ask if you are straight, which, at #EastOver, there was a ninety-five percent chance of that happening.
|My real journey started here|
As I was enjoying the evening at the anniversary, I can not tell you when the conversation of preaching outside of #EastOver shopping center came into place. I do remember sitting straight up in my chair when PastorTimothyProctor stood up and said #JehovahGod told him to preach outside of #EastOver years ago!! I remember hearing the screams of praises throughout the church at the confirmation of what #JehovahGod wanted. I felt connected but I knew now that I had
to do outreach. I thought about it as the leaders of both churches, #RegenerationHouseOfPraise and #PrayerAndPraiseMinistries, made arrangements in front of an assembly of members from other churches, for PastorTimothyProctor to do his first sermon outside of #EastOver shopping center in two weeks.
To be continued . . .
I started out deleting older post but decided to keep the ones that I did not delete to show 'some' spiritual growth. Since I have been developing a relationship with the #SupremeMakerAndRuler of all things, I want to learn to reference my life according to HisWord. While doing some research, trying to find a Bible verse to reference a conversation that I had with my daughter, I ended up here on BlogSpot with the sudden urge to blog about my growing experiences in the church.
|A more 'sunny' worship service.|
|Jehovah gave us shelter when weather was not cooperative.|
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
It's not like I get a lot of phone calls anyway.
So this is where I am now.
But like I said, I am getting better as far
as missing the damn thing.
I just check my messages periodically
and so far, I haven't gotten ONE
new message since it came in contact
with the steam from the shower.
But that's the story of my life!!!
No one responds to my blogs and no one calls.
But still I rise!!!
Other than my dilema with my phone,
I am still making my way to the gym!!
So far, I've lost 10 lbs!
Can you believe it???
I don't think I've EVER lost that much intentionally!!
Lately, I've been trying to convince myself
that I can work out at home and that
I don't need a gym.
I changed my mind quick fast since I gained
three pounds back.
I have since lost the three pounds by taking my
butt in that gym even when I don't feel like going.